When things calm down… lol
Every system has failed you. So you decided you were the problem. You’re not.
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Beautiful Wildling,
It’s raining in Coatepec. I’m on my second coffee, and I just spent fifteen minutes looking for a note I wrote in February. Found it. Mostly.
I’ll build it when things slow down.
I know that thought. I’ve had that thought. (Mine is still being built out. I’m currently organizing the Decolonizing Time manuscript inside it: years of memoir fragments, essay drafts, and a book structure that keeps evolving. That’s what a living system does.)
There’s always something that counts more right now. The client who needs something. The launch. The thing with an actual deadline. And the knowledge infrastructure (the second brain, the organized body of work, the place where everything you’ve built actually lives together) goes in the someday pile. It’s not broken exactly. You can find things (usually). Slowing down to build it while someone needs something from you feels like the wrong time to attend to yourself. So it waits.
My partner Jaimey named something I keep returning to: “The problem isn’t that you’re not thinking. It’s that the thinking has nowhere to land.” (h/t Jaimey Walking Bear) The Default Mode Network keeps circulating the unresolved stuff… the insight from last week, the framework you half-built, the thing you said in a meeting that mattered, whether or not you’ve given it a container. That circulation is costing you focus on the things you’re actually trying to do.
Every system has failed you. So you decided you were the problem. You’re not.
Notion. Roam. The color-coded folder. Each one felt promising and then didn’t hold. The standard diagnosis is that you haven’t been disciplined enough or found the right approach yet. The correct one is that these tools were built for a specific kind of mind: linear, sequential, output-maximizing. Yours doesn’t move that way.
The scattered notes aren’t a character flaw. They’re evidence of a Lilith Brain:
The mind that connects before it categorizes, follows the thread, stores in body memory and image, and laterally jumps before it stores in a folder. The one who makes the insight at 2am on Sunday and can’t remember it Tuesday morning.
Our minds don’t need a better filing system. We need infrastructure built from the inside out.
That drag before you open the third app searching for the thing you thought through two years ago: that’s the pile. The morning that starts with twenty minutes of archaeology before you can do the actual work: that’s the pile. The decision that takes longer than it should because the relevant thinking is somewhere but not connectable: that’s the pile.
The pile doesn’t shrink when things calm down. Things calm down when the pile shrinks.
K’iinBody Build Weekend is the hard date that ends the someday. I don’t know if I’ll offer this again. There may or may not be a Cohort 2 because I can only focus on what carries energy for me. If it doesn’t interest others, then I lose interest in selling it. So if you’re curious and want in, sign up now.
(The Stellar World Code and Stellar Studio content dashboard are also available within other offers, so if that’s been sticking with you, let me know.)
Three days, this weekend. Friday evening orientation (June 5), two full build days on Zoom (Saturday and Sunday, June 6-7). You leave with a working Obsidian second brain: your scattered body of work organized into a living, searchable, connected system that moves the way your mind does.
On Obsidian and AI: I know this audience carries the tension between wanting tools that actually work and being conscious of what those tools cost environmentally and politically. A few things worth naming.
Obsidian is local and offline-first. Your data lives on your device, not in someone else’s infrastructure. K’iinBody works without AI at all. If you do use it, helping process years of accumulated data can be a short-term application: a tool for the initial build, not a permanent dependency. Local or cloud, if you go that route, the choice is yours.
Dr Sam Illingworth of Slow AI wrote recently about where the environmental critique actually belongs, and their note on individual users is worth reading if you’re sitting with that tension:
“The critique in this piece is aimed at companies, infrastructure, and policy. Individual users are not the target. Disabled users, for whom AI tools remove real barriers that traditional infrastructure has never bothered to, are the last people anyone should be blaming for a system they did not build.
“If you have been using AI because a screen reader finally works, because captions are finally accurate, because a translation tool finally lets you communicate with someone on your own terms, do not read this as asking you to stop. The ask is for the companies to disclose what you are paying, in environmental terms, to access accommodations society has refused to fund through any other route.
“The fight is structural. It lives with procurement departments, with policy, and with the companies that still will not tell us the numbers.”
What’s included:
Stellar World Code: eight bespoke markdown files defining your voice, cosmology, and signal ($500 value)
Peek at the Stellar World Code interactive design... Friday evening orientation (June 5)
Two full build days on Zoom (June 6-7)
Obsidian second brain is built and populated with your existing work
Telegram pre-work channel (open now)
Month 1 support: four weekly group calls plus Telegram during business hours ($299 value, renewable)
On-device AI model consultation (optional; runs on your hardware)
Optional Stellar Studio upgrade: content dashboard + audience signal tracking ($497/year, my second web app built this year, and I’m very stoked about it.)
$1,800-$2297. Payment plans available through Stripe and PayPal partners, depending on your location.
Cohort 1 closes Thursday, June 4.
This is for Founders with a substantial body of work that lives scattered: notes apps, old documents, unpublished frameworks, course materials, half-built systems.
If the body of work exists but you can’t find it when you need it, K’iinBody is the build. Not a productivity system. A living knowledge system that’s actually yours.
Your body of work has been waiting long enough.
Join the K’iinBody Build Weekend →
Stay wild, love fiercely. Your presence is golden.
With wild and rebellious love,
Maltiox! xo Ixchel
P.S. Maltiox pronounced mall-tee-osh means with gratitude in K’iche Mayan.
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I was raised and bore children on the traditional, unceded, and stolen lands of the Coast and Central Valley Miwok (colonized as Petaluma, CA) and Nisenan (colonized as Sacramento and Fair Oaks, CA), past, present, and future. I also write, work, and live in the highland forest of the traditional, unceded and stolen lands of the Totonac, Nahua, and Mexicah, past, present, and future, in what is known as Coatepec, Veracruz, Mexico.
P.P.S. I do not live or consent to the colonial impositions regarding the construct of Time. I also practice honoring rhythms of work, play, and rest so that I can serve you with embodied presence and with loving care. This means I may take several days to respond to your requests and questions. (h/t Eva Glamaris)
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